Improved Confidence- December

I've decided that I'm going to make monthly posts up until I go to university (and possibly even beyond then) where I keep track of everything I've done in the month that has gone towards improving my confidence. These things would usually be stuff I wouldn't have normally done, but could also include things that made me feel much happier and gave me a better perspective on life. This will hopefully help me achieve my aim of improving my confidence over my gap year. These are the things I've done over December:

• Gone over to my neighbour's house (like actually going over there and knocking on her door) and had a conversation with her
• Met someone I knew in one of my AS classes and had a conversation
• Attended a second interview for the same company I had my first with, but at a different store
• Filled in the online application for the job I had been interviewed for immediately after I got home (they did things in a weird order)
• Got rejected after the two interviews by an automated email
• Filled in another online application which took forever (I don't particularly like online applications, as you can tell), and handled the rejection well enough

If I'm honest I didn't do much confidence wise this month. December was kind of a step backwards, disappointingly. I 'relaxed' a little too much over the Christmas period, which didn't really do me any good, and by the end of it I ended up feeling like complete shit. I'm trying to pick myself up from that now, and if these feeling bubble up with the same potency again I will definitely try and work them out in this blog (or at least my tumblr one). That is the whole point of this blog, working out my feelings and preventing me from completely crumbling in this 'gap year.' I'll at the very least try and do something addressing all of this, and maybe set up a self help day, which I'll blog about. I'm rambling now, so I'll stop. Hopefully January will be better.